Is it okay to give up on love?

So I have only ever attracted jerks in my life. The only person I have ever loved is straight and so won't date me. (I'm biual please don't judge me). I have horrible physical abnormalities that make me really ugly. I also have a weird condition where I have XY (male) chromosomes even though I am a woman. My parents forget about me all the time, (they like my perfect siblings who didn't get any genetic problems). I decided today what's the point in looking for love. No one really likes me and over the summer not one friend wanted to hang out. So I have given up on love and my lifes goal is to live alone and die.